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Frame of Reference
01:13
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2. |
Learn, Live, Grow
03:04
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A split second of hope would turn this whole year around
If it would just show itself and stop hiding as something else
The chips in your armor never stop happening
They just start hurting less and you learn how to let it go
You tell me that this happens far too often on
All the weekends when you feel like giving in
It makes you want to fall apart
And you confess to me
You're becoming more acquainted with the floor and concrete
You struggle to find a reason to be when
nothing exists for any reason, I believe
If you'd learn how to mend
All the wounds you own
You'd finally move along,
Learn to live, and grow
I thought when I arrived I'd have a lot to say
I'm at a loss for words I prefer the silence anyway
It's killing me to see you as half the person you could be
It's eating me alive to sit back, watch, and do nothing
But what am I supposed to say, I cannot make this go away
Why does everything have to be temporary
A burn from bathing in your afterglow
You taught us how to learn to live and grow
A single file line of problems that all say
"Lets hit him where it hurts so feelings get messy"
This is getting old
I'm looking through a lot of paintings and memories
My head's about to burst, so why don't you trust me
I'll leave you alone
Don't lie I can tell you've been shaking hands with defeat
And you're a different breed to everyone you meet
But we're the jerks who stand shoulder to shoulder
Who broke away from just repeating the same day over again
You're circling back just to find a new way
You'll wake up again feeling drained and feeling the same
And it keeps me up at night, these are the best years of our lives
How could I let them slip by
It's all that I've known for a while now
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3. |
Facing Patience
01:42
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You're like a cross on the side of a highway
draped in flowers or candles when the weather's right
When I'm near you
there's not much I can't see through
You said "anxiety has taken a hold of me
I feel worthless, I need to get this off my chest
I'm so scared to get old
Nostalgia's got me in a choke hold"
But now your heart's beating faster
Your life's a disaster
And you've never felt so alone
So you try breathing in slowly
I think you should show me
those feelings you lost long ago
You used to spend your summers
sleeping on the floor
I can barely remember the sound of your voice
but you were there, I'm sure
I wonder if you'll be here for this
then I remember you won't
And that fills me with a fear
that shakes me to the bone
When you said
"I don't wanna feel like this anymore"
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4. |
Caffeine Slave
02:14
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Hey, are you finished yet
I've got some good advice
You should get away from all of this
before it breaks you down any more
Sitting across from me
Your eyes half-closed
You're half asleep
You've had a shitty week
But who hasn't had one lately
I felt our dreams turn to echos
and fade away
I've been thinking back
On when we were twenty and had hope
skipping stones across a lake in August
Hey, are you finished yet
I've got some good advice
We should get away from all of this
before it breaks us down any more
Your eyes half-closed
You're half asleep
Your brain works slow
Your body's weak
You've had enough of this
You said you work too much
I'm tired too
you'd rather drive until you find your passion
And I said
"Man, not only are we on the same page,
we're on the same damn sentence
in a book we don't want to read"
I watched the stress take hold of your youth
and wash your former self away
I said "You can let go, it's not that hard,
You'll feel better" I still hear you say
"Don't let that stop you
from thinking back
On when we were twenty and had hope"
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5. |
Ctrl+Y
02:05
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If you'd only learn to listen
You'd hear the sound of something torn
You'd hear it in the distance
Like the calm before a storm
And you can say that you can't handle the stress,
Take summers off here instead,
Apply myself towards a goal I set
And you might think that you have everything near,
But if you listen close you'll hear
Life singing songs without you
You said you'd rather go alone, I know
Your heart, it bleeds for mountain tops and snow
Everyone has something that they want left unsaid,
Some say they'd rather be dead,
Some say it's all in their head
Well, I don't know where to begin
Retrace my steps, start again
Hold this against me
I can see it clearly in the dark
We were sitting on top of our roof
throwing beers in our lawn
said "Fuck the neighbors, we're gone by June"
And you might think that you have everything near
But if you listen close you'll hear
Life singing songs without you
If you'd only learn to listen
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6. |
Flashed By In An Instant
01:34
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When you opened up
Let the light shine through
I felt calm and saw in shades of blue
When you closed I could still see you
Illuminated by the moon
With the window close and obfuscated
I felt misread and asphyxiated
But even bright sides have their long nights
You promise everything is alright
At least you'll have stories you can tell
when you get back
A life lived less boring
Built on everything you lacked
Tell them all to me
I could've sworn I saw your face in Michigan
I don't know why, I know you've never been
I guess it was one of those moments
That flashes by in an instant
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7. |
And I'd Probably Burn It
02:06
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Is that old picture
still draped across the wall in your room
Or did you throw it in a box that's labeled
'Things I Used to Keep Close to my Heart'
With other things that tore you apart
With the things that you wish you could start
to forget, but they seem to always want to stay
and you won't let them walk away
So you move on
I used to carry this on my shoulders
I let it go, it felt lighter
You said "As much as I like making these memories,
I just can't stay in one place for too long. My shoes have gone long enough in need of a long walk."
Either pack up your things
and get lost in a sea of regret, feel confused, and hate me
Or I'll put all your things with your paper and ink
in a box labeled 'Things That Kill Me'
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8. |
Thanks
02:03
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If I would've wrote this
It would've had a better ending
The kind where you'd leave and say
That was alright, I guess
Just okay
If you haven't noticed all the
Effort I'm expending
Take an outward view, I need you to
A thought like this is underwhealming
And overdue
If I would've wrote this
You would've left before you met me
So you wouldn't have to say goodbye
And I could keep on living
If you hadn't noticed
I'm an asshole and you're demanding
You move on or fall along the way
You can keep your iron embrace to yourself
And you can stay away
We both know it's better that way
They're falling in line
While you're wasting their time
With the promise of an open door
You did your best but we want more
Lately I've been afraid that when I'm 40
I'll be looking back and wishing that I'd done more
But if I could speak to 40 me, I know he'd say
"You're 25. You're supposed to feel lost and hopeless
Just give is some more time and you'll be fine."
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I see you changing color and taking shape
You've transformed again
To suit the people around you
I can't recognize your face
There's something else walking around
That acts like you and wears your skin
Trying to wriggle out
It pushes over and over and over again 'til it breaks
And you keep biting the hand
Biting the hand that feeds you
A sharpened eye
Torn apart inside
Sees this every time
Don't leave
'Cause I've still got a few things left to say
Funny how your monetary value can build regret
When all you've bought are memories of work
Paid with your sweat
First, it takes your time and your sense of humor
Then, it leaves you broken, exhausted, and tired
And they tell you this is what life is like
So have a drink to your constant persuit of things
And how we see the world through different lenses
And follow other dreams
Do you think we're the same
Well, think back on all that's changed
'Cause now we're hanging off of different branches
With different colored leaves
And it's burning me down to the core
I don't want to know you anymore
It burns through me
I tried forgiving
It's not that easy
I stopped giving second chances years ago
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10. |
Transparent
03:05
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I may have hit a wall again, but there's a view that I want to see
It's of you in 20 years with the past far behind you
With a house and a family
Same dream, with a different meaning
Your hands outstretched
It's soft blue, but it's more like screaming
Withdraw from within
Can you see right through me
Try to move but I'm paralyzed,
Watched the light fading from your eyes
I may have hit a wall again, but there's a view that I'm gonna see
It's being able to call, see you any time at all
And not having to be afraid
But I held by breath as I walked through the door
Tried to find my footing and tripped
The drive on the way seemed shorter before
We only show the good and hide the bad
You said you feel like a ghost
You're transparent and lately
You haven't been feeling whole
Yet, despite all the time you never lost your fight
But it was never enough for you to just
Let live and let go
It was never enough for you to be on your own and just go
The time it takes, I'm always afraid
But the time will tick away all the same
The fleeting feelings bleed from you
It turns from old to something new
Your balance slightly off It's been this way for far too long
It was never enough for you to just
Let live and let go
It was never enough for you to be on your own
And just go
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11. |
Nonviolent
02:18
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You were alone
I saw it through whiskey thoughts
Heard you ask "Why are you staring at my dog"
And I said I don't know, changed the subject,
then continued to not hear a thing you said at all
I thought of you
I thought of you
Now, can you explain why I suddenly feel like
my feet are glued to the floor?
I'm an echo away from a shot at retention
I swear I'm more outgoing
I swear I can handle more
We were sitting by the fire keeping warm
and we were talking about your life
how you don't wanna let your future pass you by
And we thought of you
we thought of you
So when your life starts taking shape,
and you recover from that kick in the face
Just know I hope you stay the same.
And if you're dwelling on your past mistakes,
just know we think about you every day
and know we all hope you feel safe
Open the blinds, felt a breeze through the window
Remind me of times, we were nine and I felt less scared for you
Now I'm holding onto the frames that I can't see through
To put all our lives and our time in perspective
To open our eyes and our minds to a message
I feel like that was your purpose
I feel like all of this was worth it
This is just a page of your life
I promise time will fly by
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12. |
Gravity
02:36
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Don't think that this won't
Affect your gravity or keep you afloat
It's putting weight on my feet
It pulls you down into the concrete
The cold air that fills your lungs
You're choking back while reinforcing
The same thing you always say
"The times will change, but the people
They'll stay the same"
And I'll assume you know
There's already trails of dead grass and snow
Between fear and hope
Dont think that this won't affect your gravity
You threw your backpack on your shoulder
said "I'm fucking tired of getting older, man.
I've seen things that would make you want to
throw your fist through a wall"
They'll put a golden heart in a cage
And they'll say it was needed
I'll try to hold in my rage
Feel the same, feel defeated
I can't picture this ending up in
any shade but gray
You were outside smoking
Heard the back door open
And you thought "Fuck. I really don't want to talk to anyone right now"
Said that times are changing
Our lives are rearranging
That's not neccisarily a bad thing
Maybe we'll find peace and change are the same thing
Your car is a reminder that you're still here
And though you might be far away from home, you're always near
Time streched backwards and felt like a stranger
You said "Hold me down, I cant stop shaking,
I'm stunned and I'm afraid. It's like I'm fading out"
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13. |
Tattoos
03:51
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My father told me once
"Son, don't get stuck working a place you hate"
When I was eighteen and the world was at our feet
But if time would ever give me a break
And if life would ever cut you some slack
Maybe then we'd stop looking back and wishing
things would've turned out differently
And it seems like the seasons changed
without passing in front of me
Said "Where'd the summers go
When we could live and grow
I miss not feeling like a shadow"
That's how you always think
Why can't this just be easy
I'm still lost, help me before I sink
It's never too late
For me to retrace
And you to replay
And then we start again on a different day
It's how I'm afraid of what I can't change
And yet I hold my breath and expect things to stay the same
As when we were younger
The cloud of gloom you hold above me
Won't block the sun out that easy
I just want to make you all aware
There's no future, there's no comfort there
A hopeless seat, that's where we'll meet
I hope from time to time that you think of me
And that you smile
Struggle to stop from holding a stare
I see you in clothes that you never wear
I'm trying to stay in this moment
Try to forgive all the years that were stolen
But I close my eyes, I can see you there
I hold a gruge like I breathe in air
And that's all that I've known for a while now
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